Well well

Parents. Wonderful beings. Because of their sexual inhibitions, you were created, for better or for worse. Probably the latter in my mom’s opinion.“Why can’t you just listen? Why are you like this?” She’s yelled this a lot. Not recently, but she has come up with new things to scream at me about. Why am I like what, mom? I’m constantly getting in shit for the littlest things. I swear, she’s looking for things to yell at me about. Does it make her feel good, making me feel like the most insignificant piece of shit on this entire planet? The whole “I only get mad about these things because I care about you”, is massive bull at this point.

Random new 'rules' are being created and I must abide them or else a screaming fit shall be induced. I cannot use the computer past 10pm, even if Im doing homework. I cannot be on the phone past 10pm, but she can be up at five in the morning literally yelling on the phone in Japanese.
Its 'little' things like this that I cant stand. The way she is always so so loud. I'm less than 3 feet away from you, I can fucking hear, thanks. I'm constantly hearing sob stories about her childhood. Dont get me wrong; I honestly do understand she had rough times. But shouldn't her past experiences make her more loving towards me? She was a middle child, with an older brother and younger brother with traditional Japanese parents. Therefore, if her mother ever had time for any of her children, it would be for her sons. Thats changed now though, her mom and her are quite close.
She still felt those feelings though. Then why does she run away when I ask for a hug? Or asks me what is it that I want? Because there's gotta be a hidden motive when I ask my mom for a hug. That hurts. Again, the little things.
This list could go on. Being overbearing, obnoxious, etc has made her someone I feel like I have to always lie to. I can't tell her just about everything like Cream and Juliet can with their moms, and it really makes me sad. I'm comforted when Grays around, he understands, and I really appreciate it.

Anyways to finalize this post, I know that I could work harder on appreciating my mom more. But she could try appreciating me more too. Dad angrily says I need more respect for her. But she hasn't quite earned it yet.